Coupon Mania, a Photo and a memory....

Tonight I've been making my grocery shopping list as well as clipping my coupons that I'll be using with my shopping list. Can I just tell you that I get so excited using coupons! The money you save is...just plain silly. Wait, scratch that, NOT using coupons is JUST PLAIN SILLY!! I love calculating how much I'm going to be saving, amazing I tell ya!

Anyway, while I was couponing, Tui came in to my room with her cousin Kailei's BIG yellow flower, in her hair. It was too cute! So I hurried and busted out my camera and took a few pics. Here's one:

I still think my daughter was switched at birth...I can't believe I created such a beautiful being :)

And on to the memory...well I was reading Omi's latest blog post about her parents divorce, and how (at that age) she didn't know how to love both parents without feeling like you were betraying the other. She also said that her dad always would tell her that if she didn't want to spend time with him, he would understand.

Those are things I have thought about a lot (more so earlier in my life, than now) but never said out loud or wrote even. My parents divorced when I was 3 years old. So, I grew up with this after-the-divorce kinda life. I wasn't old enough to know how it was during and soon after the divorce and that is something that I am grateful for. My dad was always a HUGE part of lives, even though my parents were divorced. He would come and visit us and it was a total holiday every time! BUT I ALWAAAAYS felt guilty about leaving my mom behind. I would seriously feel...torn...between the two. It's nothing that either of them said or did, but I guess it was natural?

Reading Omi's post also made me think about how when I was little...I always asked my mom if she loved my dad. I would get a sick feeling in my stomach every time I asked her that, afraid she might finally say, "no". But that was never the case...she always said she loved my dad and that my dad loved her. That made me feel a MILLION times better. I never knew what kind of a toll the divorce took on my mom, I didn't even know we were poor dirt poor, because my mom always told us we were "rich with love". I always loved when she would say that, when I was LITTLE. But as I was growing older and started to realize that we didn't have money to do all the things my friends were doing, when she'd say that I would roll my eyes. I am so grateful that my mom was the woman she was...I wish I was HALF as brave and classy as she.

Time to go mohe,
Rina